“Test me Lord and try me, examine my heart and mind; for I have always been mindful of your unfailing love and have lived in reliance on your faithfulness”
I was reading this Psalm and it impressed upon me how much David was pouring out of himself to God. David invited God to examine his heart and mind, two areas where we tend to protect and not be vulnerable in. In fact I would say that almost every person in some shape or another guards a certain percentage of our heart and mind from other people and especially God. Even Christians try and hide from God, we “allow” him to enter just what we feel comfortable with but protect ourselves from other things like hurt, pain, sin, unforgiveness, emotions, or doubts that we aren’t read to give over to God quite yet.
Adam and Eve tried to hide from God in the garden after their sin. Obviously God saw right through them. We tend to try and hide from God today by pretending He does not see certain things, we cognitively KNOW He is always there but for some reason we convince ourselves that when we want, we can somehow turn off His presence.
Psalm 139:7 says “where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.
If we know we can’t escape God, if we know He sees all and knows all, the only option we have is to be open and honest with ourselves and with God. To invite Him in, like David to our hearts and our minds, areas that we don’t want to be vulnerable in. David finished the request in Psalm 26 with “I have always been mindful of your unfailing love and have lived in reliance on your faithfulness.” David reassured himself that opening himself up to a loving God would only result in His love and faithfulness being poured out on him even more. God does not want us to sin, but He will accept our forgiveness and vulnerability with a soft love and grace that only our Heavenly Father could provide.
Think today of what percent you would say you hold back from God- 3%, 10%, 50%? What things do you need to invite God into your heart and mind and be open with Him for the first time about? God loves you with a passionate love and is waiting for the invitation…